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[minimcmanno]

I am done with this. I feel as I have hit rock bottom. I am feeling like crap. It is now affecting my grades(now getting c's), possibly will affect when I get my drivers licence(I am a car guy). My LO is in the IB(super smart kids) program at another school and every time I try to sit down and do my homework(so that don't get c's) I am triggered by the the thought that I can't be like her(even though I am super gifted and considered by most very intelligent). When I try to start an assignment I start to feel weak, struggle to breathe, and can't focus on anything but her. I show up at school in the morning having gotten nothing done and thus feel like crap. I struggle to comprehend the idea that I am throwing away my potential over someone that I haven't seen for over a year; or let alone actually gone to school with for two years. I feel like I am some kind of psycho. Something needs to change. Where can I start.

[minimcmanno]

I feel like I am the only teen on here. I am scared that this experience will last a long time.

[Pudding]

Do you have access to a therapist or similar? Perhaps a student wellness centre would be a good place to start?

[minimcmanno]

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist today. Actually in two hours. Very embarrassed to talk about this, but I guess that's what doctors are for.

[Pandora]

It IS embarrassing to talk about, but I can assure you that limerence rates somewhere near the absolute bottom of shocking things that your psychiatrist hears about. Plus, they have a saying: we're only as sick as our secrets. Being able to air it out will hopefully give limerence less power!

Good luck and let us know how the appointment goes!

[Helpmeplease]

Realised I posted my response on wrong thread - hope the session goes ok today.
Isn't here some one at school toy can talk to about still access in study and teaching if you are not attending? (Did I understand that right?)

Try of think of some ways you could get back into study.
Think for what triggers her for you, and avoid thkise thoughts temporarily when you study? Why do you want to be like her? Can you place some negative thoughts around her - she is getting in the way of you getting that car?

Would setting a study plan help, enforce in your mind that it's study only in that session, no phone, not way of contact?
Can you think of a car being a reward for studying hard? (I am a car person too)

Super gifted & poor results is also a sign of bring totally bored or distracted. Being in wrong environment or not stretched. Can you combine car interests and a study hobby - mecanhical enginering side of a V8?