I haven't been limerent before. Not like this. I don't think you HAVE to have multiple limerent episodes, all life long.Watchmaker wrote: ↑Thu Oct 03, 2019 2:49 amAs I said in one of my first posts "what I experienced and felt for/with LO couldn’t hold a candle to any other ‘crushes’ or ‘infatuations’ I may have had before – all of which were mere child’s play compared to this."
But again, I'm sure many of you wiser veterans who have traveled the path before are probably nodding and smiling at what you must observe as my freshmen naiveté. This is just what I can feel/believe/see/imagine at this point in time.
I wouldn't ever want another LE again. And I wouldn't ever want another LO again... I only have eyes for her... if that makes any sense from my whacked out limerbrain.
I have much to learn, and I really appreciate how you (and many others) can tell us newbies some unadulterated, non-sugar-coated hard truths in love that we need to hear.
Oh well... here's to the journey!
BUT if I'm being honest, I've manged feelings of grief and loss and disappointment in other, equally unhealthy ways. Always distracting myself away from things that troubled me or that I couldn't solve. LO has just become the newest catalyst to get my attention and force me to dig within to some areas that I have forgotten or masked over with distractions. I wanted TRUE recovery and to TRULY get this person out of my head, as much as it hurt.
I hope to look back on the past few years with gratefulness that I finally looked inside and made active attempts to heal ME. Limerents tend to be givers. To everyone else. Recovery from limerence very much has been me learning how to have appropriate boundaries and learn the true meaning of self love. You will get there!