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There she is, we talked for quite a while--like normal adults. Could have kept a moving. Trying to detect acceptance is another never satisfied issue. I play with why her? Of all the types, why do we click? This is reality, why can't I just let that be. Why on the way home will I spawn a future, the...

Is it outright delusion that when I'm buzzing I look better in the mirror? Do I somehow see what I think the LO wants to see? My extreme projecting of outcomes and even who and what the LO's are disturbs me. I feel so bad that I put my wife on the LO pedestal. I was possessive and panicked over ever...

See if my post rings a bell. My 2017 was the first time I saw this as LE. I was so guilty ridden as all those thoughts felt like I was a cheater. The spiral down from all bad thoughts cause the upswing by scripting exclusive feel good about the LO. All the time to an insane level of thinking. Once u...

Then you feel ok. My OK is not good, it means I'm scripting as I daydream. I have to run my brain scripts and realize I've been daydreaming this person back into my life, of course that doesn't stop--too late full on again. Script half the night, wake up, feel stupid get to work and then it really h...

As it quickly leaves these things come to mind. I feel like I'm more apart of their life than I am and now stress over how I dissapear. The LE notion of wanting them to be your friend becomes stupid. That idea is just a "keep it alive" thought. I hash over, how can't I make a friend--oh ya...

Just wanted to post to let this out. Crying eases the mind that wants to rehearse things for the lo so the pain goes down. Serial Limerant here and was free of last years lo since Septemberish. I thought I could head off another by stopping all my negative scripts and being careful how I interact wi...

OK, you baited and I'll bite a bit. It's also bigotry to lump all with some, or many. Now it's emasculated males that make the women pissed as well. They still go after the bad boy and help support the idea we need to be something near perfect. I could point out the womens choice to believe that som...

Since February I suppose. I escape limerantly most of my life. 2017 was more significant in that I had no idea what and why. I just knew I coudn't stop the thoughts. This new one had me thinking too much like I do with most things, but I thought oh oh when my underarms started sweating when she was ...

That's the reality that plays as well. The answers are always obvious and point to the futility that makes this a stupid thing to be and do, yet here we are. I remember a guy here back in 17 who had a similar thing. At the time I thought it preposterous as they mostly remind me of my children. Oh th...

Still glad I did it. I'm at that sad only stage, and not worrying about me being weird or rejected helps just enough. I know LE makes me feel younger and as this summer passes I feel only the downside of this. I cringe more and more over the youth grab and feel more out of place. It adds perspective...